Just Watching, waiting.

I'm just watching, watchings as things pass by. The moment Lavender was killed, the moment Lemon was killed. I saw what impacts that had happened to others. I saw Lieutenant Jimmy Cross cover himself in guillt. I could see when Kat Riley, tortured that buffalo because his best friend had expoded into a tree. Some people take grief differently. As i saw Tim O'Brien and Dave Jensen taking Lemon from the tree he exploded on, Jensen was singing "Lemon Tree." That really blew me off. Watching Kat write Lemon's sister a letter, calling him a great guy, practically his soul mate. He started tearin' up when he wrote it too. He took his grief out that way too. The sadness, then the anger at the buffalo. I'm just watching as things are going. Not really sayin' nothing. Watching my team mates die, and cover themselves in grief. Is this what we have to live like? Another grief instant, not a death but it could have been as much. When Fossie brought his girl here, why he would bring a girl into a war is beyond me, but she left him. Left him for the greenies. You could see the grief, hear the grief in his voice. I dont ever want to be like that. She went crazy, but she sure was a nice lady.